Reality Is As Such.....

In the office, annoyed with my unreliable, incompetent boss of mine that developed new training materials via the 'Cut and Paste' method, which I detected in less than 5 minutes reading through, I did not know what to do, so I went ahead and ask him,

"Boss, seriously you 'Cut and Paste', is it?"

and to my horror this was his reply to me;

"No, it is called the 'Copy and Type' method"

I didn't find it funny at all, he sounded like a conceited snooty....
After all he has said about himself and oversold his credibility to the management and also to our fellow colleagues....

Well....well....

"Empty Vessels Makes the Loudest Noise"

Unlike the more professional trainers, we develop materials by putting together many different sources and giving the materials a new personality of itself (with 'References' attached). And I will love to call it 'Plagiarism with Style'

Anyway, I'll still develope the slides as requested by my boss, with a little additional '2 cents' worth of input.....

But the boss is still the boss......it is about time.....management sees the LIGHT....

But still....this is beyond of my control....

Therefore, I am living by this prayer......

GOD give me the SERENITY to accept things that I cannot change,
The STRENGTH to change things that I can
and the WISDOM to know the differences.

Once A Lost Sheep

I was sitting by the balcony of my apartment asking myself if GOD loves me, 'Why am I face with so much so much anger, so much pain?"

Feeling lost and blaming the whole world, seems like the right thing to do then, always looking for someone to blame seems to be basic human reaction to a problem.
The fact that God always looks out for his lost sheeps, seem to be true.....I found my bible and I flipped thru.

There it was

"By your patience possesses your soul" (Luke 21:19)

. Luke 21:19 simply means, we take possession of our souls through patience.

Why do we fail to take possession of our souls through patience?
We fail because we choose to be ignorant, and we blame things on the Devil that are the result of our own undiciplined natures. Have one ever thought what one could be when one is awakened to the TRUTH!!!

"Yeah, blame on the Devil...."

I will relate the Devil to Mr. Emotions (Mr. Mood)
Moods nearly always rooted in some physical circumstances, not in our true inner self.
We continuously struggle to fight these moods that arises from our physical conditions.

Human being humans and always saying, "I am only human".

We are mostly cursed and we give in to moods.
We know the right thing to do is never to submit to it even for a second.
We know we should slap ourselves to realization and pick ourselves up, then move on with life.
Only when we move on, we are able to do what we once believe we weren't able to do.

As I still crave for answers, I ask God "What's next?". Amazing as it is, there was John 13:17; 12:36

"If you know these things, blessed are you if you do them" (John 13:17)

God has thrown a storm and cut my bouy to open my eyes, sending me out to sea in search of myself.
The determination and curiousity of wanting to know more, I started putting pieces together.

I saw what I needed to see, I have heard what I needed to hear.
Yes it hurts, but it is worth. I now know what to do.

Only when you know you should do something and you do it, immediately you are enlighten.

Looking back on how I have back slide, not doing what I am suppose to, giving excuses to myself.
Crisis then hits, I became stressed with no insights, instead of being spiritually self-control, I became spiritually distracted.

"....in much patience, in tribulations, in need, in distress" (2 Corinthians 6:4)

I've lost all interest and given up because I had no vision, no enthusiasm, nor have I seen any improvements in myself......I felt hopeless....
I begin loose sight of things that are important to me.....I was loosing myself....
And there He was.....
He found his lost sheep....Me....
I'm glad...and truely blessed that I have found the light.....
An asbolute sign of relief.....

"While you have the light, believe in that light...." (John 12:36)

Now that I have found peace in the "Words of God" I will not give up on myself. I now have the utmost respect myself. I will not give up because I have been blocked and confused, I'll go after it again. I shall burn all bridges behind me and stand committed to my decision in the light of what I saw, heard, and learned.

Now, I walk with Dignity, I step with Pride.

"All things must come to pass" Matthew 24:6

"Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"
I now have forgiven him, and wish him all the best.....with his new found relationship
I know I'll miss him, but I also know things happen for a reason.....

"When the Lord closes a door, somewhere He opens a window"

"Time will tell......."
He has plans for me......

All Single Girl's Bibble ;p